1. Because people who post on LinkedIn ARE insufferable
2. Their content is AI generated which is also insufferable.
Basically the internet has gone full circle.
It started out pretty shit, got useful for a short time, and is now back to being pretty shit.
I don’t use it for much more than emails and banking and occasionally doom scrolling which is becoming less because I find AI generated content so off putting.
I don’t even use generic Google for study purposes any more because so much on there is just AI generated bullshit.
Sorry it was a joke but actually the foot fetish thing is super real and I often think perhaps I should start an OnlyFans just for my feet. Except my toes are kind of short and stubby and I’m not sure if there’s a market for that.
- The Courage to be Disliked.
- Moral Tribes
- Crazy like us
- Careless People
- Madness Made Me
- The righteous mind: Why good people are divided by politics and religion.
And a few that were on my 2025 list that I didn’t make it through, and are on my list for 2026 include:
- Team of Rivals
- Behave
- Why Greatness cannot be planned.
Hopefully I’ll get through those three books before the end of Feb when I go back to Uni, and won’t have time to read for leisure for about 7 months.
I found my job on a job search website. I originally applied for it in 2013 and got rejected. I got the balls to give it another crack in 2017 and I got it. It’s a technician/clinical role in healthcare - an industry I decided when I was quite young that I just had to be in (unsure why these days I was so fixated on it, I think back then I was very altruistic).
Interviewing was different. They asked a lot of weird questions like “if you were a sandwich, what flavour would you be?” And “you need to find out the weight of a boeing 737 but you don’t have scales, how are you going to figure it out?” (I said “I’d just google it”). I was perplexed by these questions and thought I’d bombed out.
The other thing they had me do was a 10 minute presentation on why I wanted the job, and what I hoped to gain. Still to this day, I think I did nail the presentation. I kept it clean.
A few years after I got my
Job, one of the guys on the panel of my interview was talking to me giving me a pep talk for an exam I needed to sit, and I asked him why they asked me those weird questions and he said “we just wanted to see how you’d handle stress and ambiguity” he also told me I did one of the best interviews he’d ever seen. That was pretty good feedback years after the matter but I’m never quite sure if he was just being nice.
In terms of surviving, healthcare especially the area I work in is not for the faint hearted, some days it really is utter carnage and overwhelming. Staff can be arseholes to each other, and management don’t care if you were hoping to go home on time - you’re probably going to stay late.
I cope with my job in several ways, some of them consciously others less so. I exercise every day, it helps with my health but also my mood, and gives me time out. I study things that are separate to what I do for work - like planning for a back up career. But at work, I also dissociate, not consciously but I do, I turn off my emotions at work, and I don’t care too much about anything or anyone. It’s not to be unkind, it’s like self preservation or something.
I also just treat my work as the money generating goal that it is. My identity, my aspirations, and my self-worth are not tied to my work, work is a thing I do to get money to live.
I am no longer as altruistic as I was when I originally went into healthcare.
Depends on how busy I am in life. Sometimes I can read for like 5 or 6 hours across the span of a day. Other times 5 minutes, or nothing at all for weeks.
Currently on a reading buzz and feeling wholesome from it.
The one that sticks with me is “show me your friends and I’ll show you your future”. (I’m sorry I can’t remember where I heard the quote).
I grew up in a place where a lot of people were addicted to drugs and alcohol and where poverty was pretty bad. I would see how they all encouraged each other to continue on their paths to self-destruction through their friendships, and I guess I was already quite picky about who my friends were but after hearing that quote I have definitely become more picky about friendships.
Then someone else once made a remark to me (which I can’t remember word for word to quote it) about watching crabs in a bucket, how they could all escape but they keep pulling each other down.
Those two quotes/concepts together have meant for me, friendship is never really a strong priority. I’m really not interested in feeling popular, and I don’t tend to struggle with loneliness because I see people all the time. I also have family members that I’m extremely close to. Especially my brother - who just gets me.
I grew up a bit of a loner and I struggled to make friends as a kid because I was super shy. People never realised I was shy because I was also super loud and talkative when I found people I felt comfortable talking to… but I generally won’t talk to new people unless they talk to me first. So maybe those quotes resonated because I was already destined to be a bit of a loner anyway and extremely selective with my friends… but I think when you think about how friendships can start to define the environments you choose to put yourself in, I think it’s a pretty life changing quote because perhaps you could change your life for the better, by changing the people you surround yourself by.
Basically the internet has gone full circle. It started out pretty shit, got useful for a short time, and is now back to being pretty shit. I don’t use it for much more than emails and banking and occasionally doom scrolling which is becoming less because I find AI generated content so off putting.
I don’t even use generic Google for study purposes any more because so much on there is just AI generated bullshit.