It's a fun toy/tool. Cool to see AI progressing. As a musician who does spend hours making music by hand this has instantly widened my artistic vision by being able to drop in a few ideas to see what comes out. Handmade music will still be around.
I definitely feel an emotional response when I am interrupted from my line of thinking. Whether it's doing a task or thinking through a problem, any sort of request that I need to handle which isn't related to the task can be difficult to switch gears to. Fwiw, I was diagnosed autistic and OCD back in the middle of the pandemic because I loved lock down and didn't want things to go back to the way they were. I had so much uninterrupted time where I could think or solve problems. However I didn't realize that loving lockdown was not a normal thing; someone suggested I talk to a psychologist which is what lead to my diagnosis. Hope you can find some answers for you.
First time in the wild I've seen someone else reference monotropism- I also feel like it describes me to a t. Thanks for sharing your experience here. Hope you're getting along ok :)
FWIW, the form worked for me and they turned me down. Maybe try again? I wrote my answers in a doc and copied them in, in case that happened. Sorry anyway- I know that sucks. Good luck on your search.
I'm glad you shared this. I have a very similar computing background to the authors. I used Microsoft exclusively until I started working in datacenters and then I switched to Mac/Linux. I was even a "Microsoft Certified Professional" at the age of 17 because of how much I had used the OS and remembered about how it worked. It was clunky and weird then but it's gotten even weirder now. All of the legacy clunk remains and now they're shoehorning more awkward stuff on top. For decades the first thing I would do on a fresh install of windows is move the task bar to the top.
Now Microsoft states that as a design choice they won't let you move the task bar:
I agree with this comment. I have no degree and no official university courses under my belt but have found bounties worth 10k+.
What helped me is that every layer of the OSI model was something that I dug in to until I understood it well. Nowadays most bounties are happening on the web (layer 7) but you can still find some fun in the other layers too.
As the previous poster stated we learn to "mask" and can get through society based on behaviors we have learned to mimic from others. We mask because society will not tolerate us otherwise. I can't just vocally stim in the grocery store without causing a scene. I've learned not to do that to have a generally "normal" experience. But I have the urge to beat box the whole way through because that's a soothing activity for me when I am experiencing anxiety and going to the store is a very anxiety provoking experience.
IMO I'd read a bit more up on the autistic spectrum. Further, I'd really recommend you never armchair diagnose anybody because that's extremely harmful. A lot of us have been told "we aren't autistic" or "that doesn't look like autism" and that specifically can cause tons of consternation for people like myself and OP as we try to figure out our way through life.
1. Part one on Curtis Yarvin: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mYrPNvVhKLU
2. Part two: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rpEg4LS3CT0
No affiliation with the show just thought the episodes were enlightening.