Amen, I’m in the same boat. I feel constantly surrounded by people who don’t get it. Don’t follow instructions, don’t communicate, don’t think critically. I know it’s me and my expectations, and I try to cope as much as possible, but it’s always creating more work for me to get to what I’m trying to accomplish. And thus, reliance on substances to get past the mundane is the cure, for now. I try to put down those substances time to time, but it seems they keep coming back.