I am totally driven by laziness. The only useful things I ever did with computers were about making less work for me or people I liked. The rest was just pissing about. I never judged myself about it and have never understood why it's such a big deal. Get into a job the purpose of which is to reduce work, and then whine about too much work pressure? Anyone reading this is probably one of the .1 percent most privileged people who ever lived in all the history of the planet. Where did these evaluative norms come from? (Yer, it's kinda obv.)
Stumbling across some philosophy stuff about "thick concepts" led me to the answer I wanted.