I lost a child 8 years ago. You will never be the same, you will never forget, you will never stop hurting. But it does become bearable. I cried my eyes out on the way to work and the way home every day for 6 months, but that let me get through the work day without crying. The thing you have to focus on is that nothing brings your child back, there is no way to fix things. You can only fix yourself and support your family and help everyone around you heal.
I took a couple of days off after the funereal and went back to work. My wife took a month off and after a couple of years she now says that was a mistake. Wallowing in your misery destroys you, and can destroy your family. I may sound harsh but you have to take care of yourself and your family first. Go back to work. The distraction of work gives you a break from the grief and you are providing for your family. It took me 6 months before I had a day I didn't cry, then another 6 to get to a day where I realized I was going to be ok.
As far as the settlement with the company, I think that is where you might be getting hung up. Get a lawyer or settle, either way the pain does not go away. Just choose a path and stay on it so you are moving forward. Make the decision to not regret whichever path you take. You cannot let this destroy your family or your life.
I took a couple of days off after the funereal and went back to work. My wife took a month off and after a couple of years she now says that was a mistake. Wallowing in your misery destroys you, and can destroy your family. I may sound harsh but you have to take care of yourself and your family first. Go back to work. The distraction of work gives you a break from the grief and you are providing for your family. It took me 6 months before I had a day I didn't cry, then another 6 to get to a day where I realized I was going to be ok.
As far as the settlement with the company, I think that is where you might be getting hung up. Get a lawyer or settle, either way the pain does not go away. Just choose a path and stay on it so you are moving forward. Make the decision to not regret whichever path you take. You cannot let this destroy your family or your life.