I've never created an account on HN before, despite many years of lurking. But I felt compelled to comment here because I want to offer what encouragement I can.
Personally, I made it through tough times in my life by opening up to the people who I knew cared about me. Good friends and family.
I don't know what your personal situation is like, but if there is anyone that comes to your mind who you can rely on to be there for you, reach out to them. Spend time with them. Sometimes you don't even have to talk about anything; merely being with others who treasure you as a human being can help you weather the worst emotions.
If you don't feel there is anyone like this in your life, then I personally extend my friendship to you. I'm posting on a throwaway because I don't like having a public identity, but I've added an email address in my profile that you can contact. If you're open to the idea, write me whenever you'd like.
Good luck and take care of yourself. I'm not much older than you are, but I learned some time ago that life is long and far more surprising than you think. You might not be able to imagine a better future, but it both exists and becomes increasingly likely as things get worse. All it takes is a bit of faith and time.
I've never created an account on HN before, despite many years of lurking. But I felt compelled to comment here because I want to offer what encouragement I can.
Personally, I made it through tough times in my life by opening up to the people who I knew cared about me. Good friends and family.
I don't know what your personal situation is like, but if there is anyone that comes to your mind who you can rely on to be there for you, reach out to them. Spend time with them. Sometimes you don't even have to talk about anything; merely being with others who treasure you as a human being can help you weather the worst emotions.
If you don't feel there is anyone like this in your life, then I personally extend my friendship to you. I'm posting on a throwaway because I don't like having a public identity, but I've added an email address in my profile that you can contact. If you're open to the idea, write me whenever you'd like.
Good luck and take care of yourself. I'm not much older than you are, but I learned some time ago that life is long and far more surprising than you think. You might not be able to imagine a better future, but it both exists and becomes increasingly likely as things get worse. All it takes is a bit of faith and time.
Hope this helps!