To All Beginners: Being solo and indie is cool but you neeed to get that diverse XP in all kinds of projects and companies. There's a reason we got here ... and it's not job security.
a) to be free from the enforcement of someones desperate desire to hard-code envy into children via products, ads and media
b) to not have schools and teachers filter and then reinforce pupils for jobs that serve class construction
c) to make sure that every kid can get it's near infinite and non-hazardous (before creative construction) LEGOs that they can play with in peaceful environments where fathers and mothers have enough on their accounts to provide peaceful and unhealthy-stress-free
environments and food and water
c) so that anyone can at least try long enough, if they so wish, to become a polymath scientist, artist and craftsman, and if it doesn't work out, to never have to be angry at some pre-emptively envious people who create and abuse crisis to drive pointlessly higher and higher prices that are NOT supported by any logic or otherwise reasonable justification
> even more efficient are smaller scale and fairly disruptive.
your tiny powerful PC "against" data centers running tickytackytock style brainwashing, priming rythms over days, weeks, months, personalized and perfectly timed with all that IoT you pass every day everywhere, just for the sale, the vote, disrupting your cognitive processes, watching you react and act, testing and quantifying your interactions and their (crawling:) psycho-social envelopment of your development... berry undisruptive, if you ask me, all while you think you're so very normal, thank you very much.
not much to hope for except "uuuuh you can makes animes and animations for bluestergram and threats" and ADverse content for le Tube and run automated companies whose supply chains will be just that and maybe maybe maybe train a wAIfu to post on XXX to hopefully find an accelerating ( or exhilarating) and adequately perverted one made of flesh and so on ...
exciting is the word you are looking for, porcoda. non-expert lurkas find the unexplainable as stimulating as skimming over the mysteries of SDF or speed reading through LSD & Samagon themed anti-communist feel good novels â læ Hesse (Vilnius Romé or something).
Radiation? Radio! Antenas! Thpooky electro-magnetism at a distance? Is that a thing? Is there a chance?
( Sureley, you understand I'm only half joking here. )
I'm kidding. Once you know what, you can check your patterns against the standard and the deviations. Then you can approach the circuits that are fucked and identify triggers.
Best to get to the roots of the reinforcement in childhood, though.
Behaviors and preferences surpressed, people you didn't beat up for reasons and so on, behavioral triggers, when you held back and why. What distracted you when you did a specific thing or the other. And, of course, the standard stuff, what were you rewarded for and did you really care about that thing yourself?
> But then whenever there’s a sale or a positive comment, I get another small jolt of motivation and I can build a bit again.
There's your solution. Positivity regarding your productivity, which is imperfectly normal, fuck your mental health.
No sale, no comment, no problem. Find something that rewards your productivity or tech savvy.
Put your projects on git, you'll get forks and stars (maybe). Maybe pieces will get adopted elsewhere. Talk about how you did what. Grow, help others. Do the opposite, hack something, for example, or reverse engineer something that'll be rewarding by itself: "holy shit, thatt's how they did it?".
If you don't have "it" internally, get it from elsewhere.
soft-forcing the EU to get their shit together in order to raise their value and capital, creating (hundreds of) thousands of jobs for high skill/ experienced people in the process, thus punching more holes into the mid and bottom branches, thus creating a gravitational pull for younger people from mid- and senior roles.
tech people are the ones running and driving "it" forward. almost all of them. the rest of the constituents is meek, irrelevant in terms of actual relevance - beyond hierarchies & chains of command.
indie/ low tech is rare.
people striving for symbiotic methods are even rarer.
the now got reduced to a ticktockish attention span and sphere. even among artists.
the buck counts more than the message. the message is no more than "compensation". "i blinded myself, mhwiwiwi"
fuFAANG/Fortune5000 are more vulnerable than todlers but even peeps with toddlers don't "transcend" ...
it's a full metal jacket kind of rationale ... "better u now and the rest of us later than me boss now" ...
it's just a couple of million years, don't worry.
the huge rock implicitly linked to the development of Earth doesn't know mercy.
life will evolve somewhere far away yet again. only a matter of time until your genes get combined again, ... if you are not among the reasons why that rock got on its way, that is ... like too many of 'dem dinosaurs, 'member?
Out of two people with chronic outbreaks of Herpes who I have taught to counter the adagio of any stress and equip the rest of the mind against unhealthy stress in general ( recurringly; I haven't found a way to hard-code such a root in adult minds ), only one applies my teaching and is affected 20+ times less by Herpes than before and per year in comparison to the other person. One is also a lot more consistent regarding his diet and eliminated any "impure" saucage like Salami, Mortadella et al as well as most cheeze.
In our family and their social circles, Alzheimers and Dementia are quite prevalent, but absent in any siblings who ate and drank (liquor) "more expensive" and less "impure" ( impurities introduced in all the steps of agri-/horticulture and (ultra-/processing) ).
Some stuck to the epithany that "this is not real meat" and "this is not real milk" when they arrived from the East, others didn't. Some noticed the effects of concentrates vs whole ingredients and others didn't.
IMO, focus on what happens to the nerves in body rather than brain when they are affected by anything "artificial" or "impure". Alzheimers , Dementia, Herpes and so on are the end of a long line of "stuff that happens".