Peter, I can see from your "about me" that you've been going through a hard time. All I can say is this is the point where you need to reach out to every person in your real, face-to-face life that cares about you and start reconnecting. Please. Human to human, you're lost right now and you need someone else to help you find your way back, I think.
It isn't going to be someone on the screen explaining these things you're asking about, it is going to be someone who knew you pre-2018. Please don't give up on reconnecting.
It isn't going to be someone on the screen explaining these things you're asking about, it is going to be someone who knew you pre-2018. Please don't give up on reconnecting.