That running and taking cold showers really do make me more focused! And that i will have to be the one that fixes my life and builds my future. Deep, i know
Oh man... you just throwback thursdayed me to my last weeks thought. I really want to get a pet fish, like a betta for my mental health. I feel like it would motivate me when im working on projects to have a buddy near me.
You arent the only human whos had a issue with not getting things done, its normal, and its hackable. Brains are hackable.
I dont mean to say you implied it, but its easy to dig a larger hole when you believe you are special, or you have tried "all" the advice.
Every problem has a solution, and I beg you to search deeper to what you do even in task-paralysis states. That might be where your mission comes from.
It helped me to have a life goal that was bigger than life, ego, or energy. Maybe you havent found it yet. If you have, I apologize if I sound cocky!
The entirety of this thread is people thinking life is easy. Kill yourself or get over it, and I mean in a sentimental way.. (Not literally)
The only thing that helped my depression, apathy and executive dysfunction was realizing I was going to rot anyways, I was never going to be happy, so I may as well start the startup, go on runs, and succeed.
Let go of the expectation you will want to/be in the mood or feel good from it