I guess I'm somewhat worried about not being able to get back to tech again, but I just realized I can still do open source contribution if I want to when doing WH.
I'm in a weird state that I have an okay amount of saving for me to do this, but I'm still worried because I had been through having almost zero money and two years of unemployment, I'm scared to get back to that again.
In the end, I know I have to let this thing go or I'll never become happy even if I'm making tons of money, gotta enjoy life sometimes, thanks for the words!
I'm 27 and have a bit of saving, I just checked wwoof and it seems pretty cool, I couldn't make up my mind which city I should go and WWOOFing gives me a general idea of the work demands, I'll hit you up sometimes, thank you for the sharing!
thanks for the story, one of the reasons I want to do this is to let go of control and to believe in myself so I can face unpredictable future, I will never know if future will get better or not, but I'll definitely be mentally stronger when I do this, cheers!
My pursuit of happiness, I'm in fear of quitting my current job and go for a working holiday to Australia, I'm excited while still trying to overcome the fear of not having a stable and well paying job because I don't find any joy in this job no more , so I am working on mentally getting out of this, I want to truly let go "money is more important than my happiness" idea.
Social skills and mental health!, I've been working pretty hard on learning how to make friends, showing my admiration to girls and become generally an outgoing and honest person, I used to be somewhat afraid of talking to strangers because I was quite worried that people might hurt me, and now I'm feeling more comfortable having conversation with new friends with less trust issues, though I pushed myself a bit too hard to recently I got plenty of panic attacks, I know it's a phase, so I'll keep working on it!
Great work! I'm usually bored too, sometimes I find something to study or try to implement known tech, but only give up when I feel like it's too hard for me or it's too much work haha, this motivates me a bit.
People usually do this for validation or just the fact is the opposite, often times these kind of people couldn't get partners just because they have this "I'm top __% guy so my partner should be ___" mentality and keeps complaining.
I used to be like this! then I figured out the reason what makes making new friends hard, I became more relaxed hanging out and reaching out to new friends, now I can enjoy both new and old friends' accompany, tho I'm still working on making myself more comfortable making friends.
I used to be defensive a lot, that's when I realized one of the main reason was due to low self-esteem and lack of self acceptance, many times people weren't trying to devalue me or offend me but because of I couldn't really accept myself, I usually thought they were attacking me instead of actually engage in the conversation to see if they really meant to judge me.
After therapy, lots of reading and learning to accept myself, now I feel better and more efficient communicating, sometimes I don't even notice people are judging me or making fun of me, because now I seek very little validation from people, this makes me focus on the issue and supporting kind people around me.
it's still a work in progress, but this new perspective of the world brings me more freedom and happiness.
this is a very good read, and I did found some of the mistakes I sometimes make in communication, this is one of the post that'll make me want to reread in the future.
I think this post is your first step, so kudos to this!, I think philosophy books help, you can read some basic philosophy, pause and write down what you think, instead of internal voice, you can make texts as a bridge between your thoughts and yourself.
Have you been checked for ADHD? I think this is a common problem for people who has ADHD, I got diagnosed in college, that's when I realized normal people don't have that much thoughts usually.
Very interesting and fun read! thanks for the post, when I saw the public restful api endpoint I immediately tried to see if I can make request just to see the "NICE TRY!" message, haha, then I kept on reading how you managed this issue.
I know that my colleague runs proxmox on this, you can do many things with it, my company is currently running proxmox and set up many vms as kubernetes nodes, I always appreciate people who set up their own lab, that colleague of mine somehow has enterprise grade storage server, nics... and many more inside his house just to have fun
I really want to try factorio, but now I usually see games as non-productive activity (that's my problem and I know it, in my defense, I've already spent way too much time gaming in college and did nothing), I wonder if factorio can make my software skill better in terms of designing and critical thinking, if that's the case, I would love to have fun and practice as well
I feel this so bad, I used to make little software that solves my problem, now whenever I want to build anything I think about "is it going to be useful for my resume?" instead of fun things and I always quit because it then put lots of pressure on me for building "useful but not fun" projects.
I'm in a weird state that I have an okay amount of saving for me to do this, but I'm still worried because I had been through having almost zero money and two years of unemployment, I'm scared to get back to that again.
In the end, I know I have to let this thing go or I'll never become happy even if I'm making tons of money, gotta enjoy life sometimes, thanks for the words!
Best of luck in our journeys too!