After since I posted this, last night before sleeping, I went to internet and came up with a plan to cover every topic I have ever wanted to learn with computer basics. Its starting to feel less overwhelming.
We aren't magically born with knowledge and we all learn in a different pace.
My new schedule is slow, but It has everything I have ever wanted to do. !
thanks for the links, will check them out.
Yess, that feeling of not belonging is relatable. I am also picking courses on various platforms and planing to do it in parallel with my current professional learnings.