I feel you. It's been a very hard 2 years, and it's easy to get angry at a variety of people or institutions that seem to be, or are, responsible for it. And I've done more than my share of drinking, too.
What has helped me is to first, try to be compassionate to those around me.
And second, it's a little weird, but I try to wish others well and feel compassionate towards them, even those who are far away and who I haven't met. It would be like "praying" for their well-being, even though I'm an atheist and don't think there's anything mystical about it. But if I do it for others, then I have a rational basis for thinking someone else might be doing it for me.
People who are striving for self-improvement are just trying to get some control of their out-of-control lives. It's just one of many possible coping mechanisms.
What has helped me is to first, try to be compassionate to those around me.
And second, it's a little weird, but I try to wish others well and feel compassionate towards them, even those who are far away and who I haven't met. It would be like "praying" for their well-being, even though I'm an atheist and don't think there's anything mystical about it. But if I do it for others, then I have a rational basis for thinking someone else might be doing it for me.
People who are striving for self-improvement are just trying to get some control of their out-of-control lives. It's just one of many possible coping mechanisms.