If you suspect your offspring (or your genes) would somehow be harmful to humanity, no one is asking you to produce any. But calling suicide your "mission" just betrays spite and resentment. What's so urgent about it?
Isn't it really about wanting to escape suffering?
I suspect you're missing the point of the parent comment, and the post itself. Regardless of whether these thoughts are wrong or oppressive, is it useful to fight or deny them? Is it helpful to chastise ourselves or feel guilty for having them?
The first episode of Kieslowski's Dekalog (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dekalog) deals with exactly this theme, through the subject of technology. It's from Soviet Poland but it's a memorable illustration.
Sorry I don't follow. So you came back, and the company had moved but they reserved a cubicle for you at the new office?
What does you forcing the issue have to do with them missing you?
Isn't it really about wanting to escape suffering?