This is story of my friend, he calls himself "Dood" as he doodles
"My Mid life crises hit me hard. I was always loner by nature. Never had many friends, few family members, mediocre career. Not much money in the bank. In a year, I lost few of my elderly family members. It came as a shock.
I realized, after 20 years of career, I haven't achieved much. There are not many people in the world, who know about me, about my existence. Whatever I was doing at my job, was not going to make any difference to the world or to anybody. If I die nothing matters. I lost interest in doing things. It was dead end for me. Nothing made sense. I started getting suicidal thoughts
Whatever I did, my brain told me, " why bother?" Many people tried to advise me. But this is the first time, it didn't matter. In my life, first time I didn't care about others opinions.
One day I doodled something on paper. I realized. I like to doodle. So I doodled more. I felt happy. I did my 9 to 5 job, but whenever I got time, I doodled. After few days, I put them for sell on different platforms. I wasn't expecting anybody to buy it. In fact, it was like I was craving for rejection, just so that I can feel that “I don't care" feeling.
I started wearing whatever I like. I started doing things which I liked. I realized I am the most important person in my life. It lifted lot of weight from my mind. I felt free
Almost after one year, somebody bought one of my doodles as a company logo. Not much money, but I felt good. I gave it to charity.
So, mostly things aren’t changed much in my life. But my attitude is changed. My biggest achievement in my life is, change of outlook from negative to positive. I started meeting many unfortunate people through my charity work. People, who don't have roof on their head, people with terminal illness. I realized how blessed I am, to have this kind of life. Now I stopped taking things for granted. There is lot of life out there, more than promotion, bad boss, and dirty office politics.