I'm not seeing Deepseek mentioned very often, which I've been using for Openclaw, very cheaply I might add, with great success. I think I loaded $10 to my account 2 months ago and I still havent needed to top up.
You keep grouping envy with inherently negative mindsets. Sometimes envy is just envy. As in, "damn, John is married with kids and a great job, and I'm still single and scraping by, I gotta get my shit together". I am not upset that John has these things, I am happy my friend John is happy. It also served as a reminder of what I want for myself, and thus, my envy is a motivator.