Not to be too self-promoty, but I spent a ton of time thinking about the schema for my site, and have gotten some compliments on the detail and documentation: https://aytwit.com/sql
Second this. I've never binge watched anything on Youtube like Sadhguru videos. You can search for "Sadhguru <just about any kind of difficult life problem>" and he has a take on it that brings you deeper than the one dimensional way you were thinking about it in the first place.
I hope that helps spark some ideas for you.