No, I am not OK. Mortgage, being sole provider, a heart attack (stress related) three years ago, corporate environment 9-10h a day, incompetent managers, impossible schedules, my own incompetence, family issues, suicidal thoughts. I’ve started seeing a therapist.
I am at loss how is this connected to free will at all. I always though of it this way: If I was born with the exact same DNA and if I had the exact same experience as another person, given the exact same options, would I always make the same choice. If yes, then there is no free will. But it seems impossible to reproduce the exact same situation.
It’s short anyway. Imagine the amount of time before your birth and after your death. In two-three generations no one will remember you. Maybe they will remember your name (if you do something important), but they will not remember you. Whatever you think is important, it is not much more important than doing dishes, cooking, gardening... it’s all irrelevant.
This scenario is one of my nightmares. It makes me extremely anxious to think about it. I’m absent minded all the time, preoccupied with work even while driving so it is not far fetched. I try to focus but I fail I lot.
And somehow my nightmares always come true. Maybe I attract them with thinking about them. Sounds silly I know, but can’t help feeling that way.
No. 2 kids, just took a huge loan that will take 25 years to pay of (I’ll be 67). One heart attack (stress related) under the belt. Working 10-12 a day in a shitty country. Almost no savings.
I see successful guys answering in a “look at me how great I am” style. FU
Why are we not boycotting this apartheid state? Their Prime Minister just announced annexation of the larger part of West Bank. It shows what their ultimate goal is and always was. Peace talks are just smoke and mirrors.
In 3-5 weeks (change to months for a bigger project). Don’t buy the ad until it’s in production. Use the 3 months to iron out tha bugs that will be found in production.