"It was never recommended to decompose a system into microservices while it is not mature enough. While small, a business has to be flexible and react quickly to the opportunities in the market. This is not an ideal environment for building microservices, and more benefits can be achieved by having a monolith instead. PHP with its ecosystem perfectly fits into this strategy."
If you want to make a positive impact on the world, I would go out and see the world. People like to live in fear of not following the right path - but diverging from the norm is what makes new possibilities happen. Take some time to relax, recharge, and think about what it is you want to accomplish.