1 People that desperately want to be good at something are delusional because thats is just a dream they see themselves already there but they do not have the key to unlock that door.
2 when people go and see someone to help them out in something they want someone to fix that for them otherwise they would be fixing that by themselves.
3 People like that are emotional strugglers they have mental blocks they do not follow up.
4. If a third part is going to make them to commit into something they will be blaming the third part for their failures.
You might consider seeing a psychologist or whatever in this niche to find out who you are.
Other option is to study about the topic
I would suggest you to watch on youtube Robert Sapolsky lectures human behavioral biology as well Jordan Peterson maps of meaning adding to that jim roth spechees these will give a chance to study about yourself
What is the purpose of mask have you ever thought about? If you plan a bank heist you need to use a mask otherwise your face will be exposed to a cctv. Said that who wears a mask is the potential Villain. doctors wear mask to prevent that their patients catch an infection. Wear a veil is a law in accordance to their beliefs. Mask and veils do not last longer you have to change or clean. To finish with this nonsense it is all about the end of freedom where machines and AI will dictate what you can and what these machines allow you to do. In a few months the shadow goverament will implant a chip to control you
And the trade war between US and China could it be the everything bubble and the virus is being used as their leverage and excuses for their actions now and the time being?