I need your help. Please open up 100% of your dossier on me so I can begin to regain a sense of normalcy. I need you to do this for me so I can come to grips with nonconsentually participating in your respective firms' data abuse and behavior control experiment practices.
Your non-response amounts to gaslighting. You count on civilians submitting their private lives to you without questioning what you do with their data. You are not responsible stewards of our personal data. Cybersecurity is only half of the responsibility equation. You are a failure and blight on society regarding social responsibility. I already know you will not respond to me, a person who is adamantly opposed to your data abuse practices, and who is willing to wager eternity to protest your rule over our data.
You are primarily concerned with your own control, wealth, and power. Shame on you.
I was a software dev mgr for a multi data center hosting company, then became the technical cofounder for a startup. Mid 40's in the USA in a great climate (won't freeze).
Failed lives are hard to identify root causes. I didn't adapt to society. We only have control over ourselves, ultimately (despite the notion at malicious evil corps like Google that automated behavior control is possible).
Hey, note for Susan Wojcicki. You are an irresponsible sociopath. I've thoroughly vocalized my grievances about your firm's data abuse practices, which fell on (your) deaf ears.
If Google agrees to open up 100% of their dossier they secretly maintain on me, I'll stick around. Otherwise, I plan on committing suicide this week.
Yes. Failed startup and haven't coded in four years. Ears blown out from a failed non-starter music career. And, stopped being able to process being part of a google-led surveillance society via no-opt-out malicious or amoral psyops that egregiously abuse my provided personal data and other undisclosed non-provided personal data in a soft-real-time stream-of-consciousness manner.
I am homeless. I have no address. On foot now, walking to get food, since I have no transportation of any kind. I have about $80 on cashapp and apple pay thanks to some folks here who tried supporting my renewed desire to write software again. That desire is gone and I would like to be gone.
My food stamps just got cancelled yesterday since I have no addr and since I missed required paperwork. It's the final straw that has pushed me to the end. I've been getting tumbled around and held under a rogue wave for years now and have reached a breaking point where my ability to avoid suicide is dissipating.
I am not likely to code or work again. Likely outcome is suicide by rope, which I hope to complete this week after the $80 runs out.
I'll gladly take a fishing rod (used laptop with SSD and >=8GB RAM to code), if anyone has one to spare. I'll also work off a laptop at a favorable hourly rate.
Can fish; need a rod (laptop) and directions to a sufficiently stocked "special needs" river (low stress coding gig). Able to walk uphill in both directions to school (write robust code), while chewing bubblegum (DevSecOps wannabe).
I don't have a reddit account but could try tomorrow. I am ideologically opposed to using reddit but can override that and try anyway. It's a large community after all.
I have a lot of experience with plugs, muffs, musician-specific molded flat freq response earplugs, and noise cancelling headphones and earbuds.
Even using plugs and muffs doesn't work for loud power tools like a miter saw. The vibrations are too much. A small slip up with earmuffs and a single miter saw cut puts me in hell for days on end. I can't live in cities. I have issues in any structure generally, but have found that bose noise cancelling earbuds are good for sleep in a residential suburb/rural area.
Plugs increase my perception of T. Even covering my ear increases it.
Bose noise cancelling buds seem to alleviate the T. There are other brands that apparently are effective for managing T. iqbuds iirc. More $$$. I do not have any headphones or muffs at this time.
I was a prof. musician briefly, played loud rock music for a long time, worked in high end music studios, worked loud construction jobs incl'g concrete cutting, and somewhat frequented loud dance clubs as a teen. It added up to a reduced quality of life and struggle for the past >20 years.
I can get by on light noise jobs with buds and muffs, but surpisingly many contractors think I am a dork slinging wheelbarrows around with muffs on and won't bring me on public facing jobs.
Eventually, any sustained exposure to sound invokes stress, then anger. This has consistently been the case on any attempt to do blue collar work in recent years. The only solution that works is low stress (hence -- in part -- current situation of no coding for years), and low noise (I sleep in a peaceful spot in the countryside outdoors).
I am still walking all the time. I am very healthy as a result physically but working on top of that in any sustained capacity has been challenging.
I've exhausted resources here that will work. I can get rental assistance if I have a lease in hand. It's there for me but I need a place first. Getting a proper lease will require professional work and proof of recent income. Chicken / egg / hard boiled.
The shelters here are not suitable. I really just need to work in my profession, which is computers, build some capital and regroup. It's possible. Uphill is far more appealing to me now than constantly mulling suicide due to destitution. I've experienced a gnarly cycle of being partially housed to inadequately housed to unhoused, back and forth numerous times this past year. Each downgrade invokes more stress and helplessness. I'd like to try a different path now.
Yes, I've sought lots of help locally, have been robbed, conned, and exposed to criminality by drug users and the like. I've learned more than expected about street life and the struggles of the poverty wage class. It's a bitter sweet mix. A number of folks with little will give you the shirt off of their back. Humbling experience in many respects. I'm still here because many people don't view relationships merely as transactional. It's been an eye opener.
I've kept notes on help provided by others and would also like to compensate them in return when possible.
Perhaps someone will hire me for very lowball, low stress coding work. I can sling PHP, MySQL, Python, JS, Node, MVC frameworks, build API's or perhaps spend time learning TS or whatever you kids do. I have a lot of experience with Windows, Linux, Mac, I know AWS basics, automated test development processes, continuous integration, strong comprehension of business processes, etc. Background in EE/CS fundamentals. I've dabbled with many more languages and stacks. PHP/MySQL with or without a framework, and/or any modern front end framework are the most obvious fits where I can immediately produce.
Thus, no charity, just an advance to do practical work. Please don't throw something at me I don't know or can't easily learn. I don't know solidity or salesforce for instance and would probably fail trying to quickly ramp up on such tech.
FAANG etc are not in my future. I work best as a 1099 remotely on small/medium projects. I've independently managed complex monoliths up to 300 tables in a RDBMS but can work on granular archs as well.
It's a bit inappropriate to use third person in a person's presence.
I never said such things to family and friends in recent years. Past help was simply for food before finally giving in to obtain EBT. Once I lost my vehicle, it was easy to qualify for food help. Your speculation is not correct in this case.
I've worked odd jobs in recent years for food money, or for other consumables such as clothing or toiletries. Such work has dried up or become infeasible. I am in a remote area unsheltered. There's one coworking space within biking (or in my current routine, walking) distance.
It's far more difficult than you realize to "pull myself up" with no resources to do so, not even transportation such as a bicycle, as well as while under pressure for my next meal.
If you really must know, I have a hearing condition that prevents me from being able to use any power tools or play music. I gave up performing and recording music a long time ago. I have tried doing labor jobs but am limited on the types of blue collar jobs I can sustain, lest my tinnitus and hyperacusis flare up. It has taken me decades of managing sound exposure in order for my T and H to become manageable.
In my current predicament, I have a backpack with my phone, a hydro flask, phone charger, and personal docs/wallet. I walk everywhere. I have warm clothes stashed many miles where I am safe, from any stores/non-residential areas.
Programming stress affect my T and H but I have little choice but to try again and attempt to find a balance that minimizes stress for a given sustained effort.
I have turned down programming opportunities while homeless in recent years. Less social than most, yes. Programming while homeless especially during the pandemic where even Starbucks has no outlets is not as feasible as one would think, to say the least.
Programming in public is not for everyone. In the past (5-15 years ago), I worked most productively from home. No distractions. Coworking space is a suitable interim compromise.
I tried a large coworking space about four years ago. Large, loud crowds and shoulder surfing not dissimilar from a coffee shop. The local coworking space here is a small boutique shop.
Per other comment, any transient work done in recent years was non-technical. One exception: I tried doing one local full stack programming job last fall on an old laptop. Spent better part of a week setting up my env on a machine with a 7,200 RPM HDD and 4GB RAM. (I use VBox at a minimum for Linux server dev work). Gave up after a week of frustration.
If you'd like more info on my personal situation I'd prefer to discuss it in a more private context.
> criminal record
I have no criminal record.
> drugs, weed, alcohol
I don't use drugs, haven't smoked any weed in some time, and rarely drink (maybe a few drinks in recent years).
I burned out on programming years ago and went through a bunch of other difficult life changing events simultaneously. The pressure added up and overwhelmed me. I don't have any family nor long term friends within 2,000 miles.
Legitimate questions.
Yes, I am quite capable. I've tried getting back on my feet but need an organized effort to have hope to actually sustain any productivity in line with my historical norms prior to going homeless.
Part of this process has involved getting past burnout, which I feel has occurred.
Also, I'd like to get even with Dr. Hathaway (moral imperative). This last statement is just a joke but may resonate with some.
I don't know enough about Pine, but aapl/goog have had hackers battle testing their platforms for a while. I don't see how an open platform can leapfrog ahead unless aapl/goog truly are sabotaging security for "big bro"
yes, cloud is a big hole, but are we hiding from the law? aapl only responds to warrant requests -- supposedly.
(on a side note, afaik, aapl is building their own baseband proc, which presumably will be a good thing for security)
What you said makes a ton of sense, but curious to see in practice how the security of such a device will hold up. you'd have to expect that the platform will have holes, being so new -- and that there wont be enough eyes on, not without adoption. paradox.
yes, open device means far greater flexibility on security posture but this presumes a mature, battle tested tool set. (and may or may not be built on a better foundation than corporate closed phone tech -- hence inquiry)
contrarily and back to my original inquiry -- i still wonder if there are fundamental design choices inherent to Pine that separate it from (or bring it on par with) commercial offerings. (besides those elucidated by you and another commenter -- thanks). for instance, physical boundaries such as a secure enclave, etc
i challenge the notion about aapl and casual hackers. every non-trivial platform has bugs, whether open or closed. there isn't a way to casually own an up to date iOS device, for instance -- if one had such an exploit it would be worth a lot of money to aapl or a broker
is that really the case? apple as example, they develop secretive and innovative security measures that, while compatible with their corporate mandates, do actually aim to protect end users. yes, this is in contradiction to certain privacy needs, user lock-in, etc as you mentioned
primarily, i am interested to learn what pine or other offering does outside of the obvious benefits of it being open. specifically, what security measures on their own merit, hardware and/or software, does pine offer, either uniquely or in an effort to "catch up" (e.g. secure enclave)
Besides being open source and not connected to big tech, and besides being designed/built with privacy in mind, what fundamental security advantages does a project like Pine offer over aapl/goog's efforts, from a hardware/software design perspective? Apologies for the simplistic inquiry.
The reason for asking is that goog/aapl have had generations of highly paid talent trudging through a security nightmare and are presumably generations ahead of what is even feasible for non-big tech interests.