Maybe I am projecting, or misinterpreting because I lack context, but I actually find the quote posted by angrycoder to be (by Nietzsche's standards, anyway) rather uplifting, and not about absurdism or a fundamental lack of meaning in the world. My take on it is quite the opposite - that he was expressing something noble and almost 'hyperreal', namely the triumph of curiosity and exploration over the safe and familiar.
I may have totally missed the point, of course. Thanks for replying - I'll definitely check out your links.
I'm sorry to hear about your current struggles, fwiw from an internet stranger, I wish you the best of luck.
I too suffer from pretty severe depression, and, like you, am going through a particularly acute bout at the moment. I'll likely be checking myself into a clinic at some point in the next 24 hours regardless, but I'd be really interested in hearing more about the 'mental safeguards' you mention in your first paragraph.
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