You are not alone. I know how you feel. Was just laid off last month myself.
Several others in my company on H1B were also laid off- alto the company was "generous" enough to keep them on the books (at a token salary) for an additional 4 months to give them an extension while they look for work.
You are lucky to have a good spouse. Think about what you have. The market will come back- and you will find a job soon.
Is the MTA doing this at its subway turnstiles? Everyday I see people just walk thru the open gates or jump right thru without paying. I feel like a chump for paying.