Thank you Matt - your insight on thinking about yourself as a failure while being alone hit me quite hard, but also provided a piece of self reflection I did not have until now.
As for this experience being an opportunity and a challenge - I totally agree, even though it does not seem so ATM.
Let us both embrace this challenging-but-worthwile part of it, I guess, while also acknowledging the hard ones. Wish you love and peace as well along your journey!
This year, after a tumultuous breakup (that quite literally plunged me into my deepest crisis to day), I’m practicing being alone. Mostly because what lead to said breakup in the first place, was me being a relationship-addict, which at this point in my self-awareness journey I understand to be a transgenerational issue. Thus being with family does not help at all (even though I did my fair share of being with them yesterday). As opposed to OP, I’m less than happy about the whole thing understandably.
What helps is hiking, I guess, trying to get a grip on whether doing it alone or with others helps more.
I guess this is close to being rock bottom for me at this point, hope you guys feel at least a tiny bit ok.
As for this experience being an opportunity and a challenge - I totally agree, even though it does not seem so ATM.
Let us both embrace this challenging-but-worthwile part of it, I guess, while also acknowledging the hard ones. Wish you love and peace as well along your journey!