Thanks I think this is good advice. To clarify: I'm leaning towards indie game dev and contracting on the side for a while so I can find my balance again. I am very burned out. 100 hours per week and being involved directly with covid 19 testing took its toll.
This is an interesting idea. I don't want to just scrape by though, I'd like to use the skills I've acquired over the years to do something that doesn't involve being a full time employee for a company.
Hmm perhaps it isn't in my comments... thought I had talked about it with this account. I was doing 60 to 80 hour work weeks until the last few months which turned into 100 hour work weeks (3am start time, phased sleep, working weekends).
This was all for a covid19 start up.
> it is broadly true that the 90s was a happier time than present.
I do have some great memories from the 90s, but for a few years I lived in a town south of Chicago that was heavy in gangs where I would regularly hear semi-automatic gun fire, see the river getting trolled for bodies and lived next to a professional bike thief. My father's truck was robbed of tools, my bike was stolen, my friends were poor as dirt and I couldn't play in their yards because I am white and they were afraid their neighbors would beat the shit out of me or kill me, and one of those friends was in a gang (learned that 15 years later).
I remember lots of good things, but my 90s experience wasn't all that pleasant.
I wasn't speaking in hyperbole. I have worked many 3am to 6pm days, and my typical day is 8am to 6pm. I have only had a few sane days, and I don't take breaks. I feel like shit most of the time.