I'm going to take your comment in good faith and assume you are just frustrated with the system.
I don't live in the US, my experience comes from the Netherlands.
I was having hard time dealling with the Covid period, and was having lots of anxiety regarding my work and proeutivy so I reached out to my GP. Talked and had sessions with 2 different psycologists over a year, both suggested to ask a referral to an ADHD specific clinic.
Since I did not want medication I never followed through. Fast forward a few years I reached out to a GP because I was thinking the ADHD "assesment" was correct. Followed up with another GP, they were super kind took my ADHD concerns seriously specially since I wanted to avoid medication first. Got referred to a psicology practice that followed me for 8 weeks, after they they also gave insurance a note that it was possible ADHD and followed me up with a different referal to a different clinic more specialized again.
So no I don't have an ADHD "certificate" to hang on the wall, but I have talked with enough professionals that think that might be the case.
I'm doing alright as far as my career goes, not great, but okay. Which is disappointing because me and everyone around thought I'd do great, because I/they thought I was a great software developer, since I'm smart and I know my tech and my programming.
Unfortunately working as a software developer is a different story entirely, I found many times that my chase for good simple code takes time, and sometimes I overthink things and I don't test properly, and I'm also slow, and don't communicate the problem with my team because I don't work consistent hours, because my brain cannot do consistency.
Turns out I have ADHD. Possibly autism too. So I understand your feelings of I just need to be better, because it works for other right? Even tho you know that fundamentally you are right, but it works for others so why not you? I don't have a solution. But sometimes you can't just "be better" and "more consistent", I also wish I could, but maybe it's not possible.
Maybe the only way is to find where we are good and do more of that. If you have struggle finishing things hope on calls with people that are good at finishing things. Talk with them. Be proactive and be open. I also don't do this as often as I should, because I'm also ashamed.
I don't know exactly what the point was to this, but so you know others also fail, even tho they deemed smart and skilled by others.
I'm working on this food logging app / personal health dashboard that I'm building for myself.
I was asked to log my food by a dietician I'm working with, because I was constantly feeling hunger after cycling training.
But all the solution out there were quite complex to input data, and I just want to write down plain text with some additional markup and be able to generate some graphs and recognize some patterns out it.
Decided to do it T3 and throw in all those weird technologies just to see what's out there.
I started using TikTok for a couple of weeks now and started to find it fascinating, the communities that are built around the bubbles the algorithm creates are quite interesting and have discussion between themselves. It's easy to reach out to actual subject mater experts for non-technical stuff, people you wouldn't typically see on HN or Reddit.
Now does it bring __value__ to my life? No
Will I keep participating and creating content just to engage in these niche communities? Yes
New account, publication is made by someone @vaccines.net which claims the following "We are concerned that the current outbreak of COVID-19 is actually a bioweapon attack and may be linked to the US anthrax attack of 2001, which originated from the US army base Fort Detrick."
The publication has not been peer reviewed, and quotes several times articles published by the original author with similar claims.
I can second this, this what I usually do when I want to taste new coffees that are very expensive and I don't want to dial in. It's basically like doing a cupping with a Aeropress.
I would just some changes, water would be just out of boil (otherwise it's hard to extract light roasts), I would grind medium/medium-fine, and I would break the crust that is on top after the 3 min.
I don't live in the US, my experience comes from the Netherlands.
I was having hard time dealling with the Covid period, and was having lots of anxiety regarding my work and proeutivy so I reached out to my GP. Talked and had sessions with 2 different psycologists over a year, both suggested to ask a referral to an ADHD specific clinic.
Since I did not want medication I never followed through. Fast forward a few years I reached out to a GP because I was thinking the ADHD "assesment" was correct. Followed up with another GP, they were super kind took my ADHD concerns seriously specially since I wanted to avoid medication first. Got referred to a psicology practice that followed me for 8 weeks, after they they also gave insurance a note that it was possible ADHD and followed me up with a different referal to a different clinic more specialized again.
So no I don't have an ADHD "certificate" to hang on the wall, but I have talked with enough professionals that think that might be the case.