Thank you, I really appreciate the offer. This feeling is definitely something I'd like to free myself from, and you seem to have figured out how to get a sense of peace. I'd love to chat.
My email is charliecollard0 at gmail dot com.
I feel like such a fool for going down this path, but I've recently been reading up on life extension, and Aubrey de Grey in particular. In fact, I did a Google search for his name on hacker news, and this thread came up and I recognised your handle in the discussion!
It's embarrassing how much relief even thinking about the possibility of having more time with the people I love gives me, compared to everything else I've tried. Do you think it's healthy to have this in the back of my mind as a possiblity? My rational side wants to dismiss it as just another religion of a different shade, and I feel it does set myself up for a lot of disappointment at an older age. After all, if it sounds too good to be true...
I guess that’s the thing - I do choose to run every day.
I love my wife, I generally enjoy my job. I literally run in the park everyday. I don’t sit around in a dark room despairing (at least not until I go to bed).
I do my absolute best to get the most out of life. But the feeling of dread stays with me no matter what I do. It taints every memory and every waking moment. I can’t run from my thoughts, try as I might.
My email is charliecollard0 at gmail dot com.
I feel like such a fool for going down this path, but I've recently been reading up on life extension, and Aubrey de Grey in particular. In fact, I did a Google search for his name on hacker news, and this thread came up and I recognised your handle in the discussion!
https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=20854050
It's embarrassing how much relief even thinking about the possibility of having more time with the people I love gives me, compared to everything else I've tried. Do you think it's healthy to have this in the back of my mind as a possiblity? My rational side wants to dismiss it as just another religion of a different shade, and I feel it does set myself up for a lot of disappointment at an older age. After all, if it sounds too good to be true...
Have you gone down this road yourself?