first ，stop telling story to yourself its a prison，second，treat this as a new chapter and accept the building adjustment，third，stop characterizing your self to a stable，static statue，instead，let it flow. last, don’t escape , don’t try to fix or solve anything, all such self talk points to same underlying thing - it’s a problem. No, it’s not, it’s a status. More intention of fixing it, more problems you would sense. no many suggestions，we carrying something while building something.
Edit to add few experiences.
I travelled alone and also travelled with my once-deeply loved boyfriend. I travelled for 11 days to other countries. I had most romantic days with that boyfriend in the travel, i took the travel alone as some evidence that I could live without him. And in that single journey, I met guys and had a few deep conversations with each one. I saw views I ignored when i was with him.
In the single journey, it’s still beautiful. Sense them, allow them.
I don’t have preference to pay for a note-taking app, since there are way too many. Icloud sync did bad job as its sync solution, you never want to wait for 10mins for sync every time. Remotely save doesn’t work when you got long file names, i still got empty folders from my last tries per this plugin linking to onedrvie, google drive and webdav.
If i have to pay ob sync to get a complete solution, then ob may not be an option, ob is great, but it still causing cognitive overwhelming after years and thousands of files.
I love “day one” for note taking.
And ob maybe just for PKM.
Edit to add few experiences.
I travelled alone and also travelled with my once-deeply loved boyfriend. I travelled for 11 days to other countries. I had most romantic days with that boyfriend in the travel, i took the travel alone as some evidence that I could live without him. And in that single journey, I met guys and had a few deep conversations with each one. I saw views I ignored when i was with him.
In the single journey, it’s still beautiful. Sense them, allow them.