I think police only released half-face photo to media. They had more angles and pictures of the person. Could also be that they got additional photos from a car ride that has been mentioned in many reports.
I’d echo this - you’re not alone. Talk to someone who you can lean on. If not, may I suggest online therapy like betterhelp.com.
I have had a positive experience with a no judgement conversation with a wonderful listener who I can (and continue to) lean on when things are falling apart.