I come from a small country town and moved in to the city and have disliked living here since the start, multiple cities actually. And yes I know that country people are special when it comes to accepting new people.
It won't be easy but France24 had some good stories about people who had done just that. They worked hard but for the moment they seemed to think that they had made the right decisions. I have enough money to live for more than a year without making a single penny so it's not that as bad as it sound.
Well plan C is going back to industrial work I did during the summers at university. Very dirty, very rough but at the end of the day I felt better than I do now. My boss said that I can come back anytime so that's always a backup.
I've spent 5 years at university and turning 30 this year, I'm going to quit my job in about a month and throw it all away. Can't say that my family is thrilled but I'm gaining weight like crazy, don't like my job, I don't fit in the culture, I don't like sitting down all day in front of a computer, I drink to much because of this.
I'm playing with the thought of opening a store in some small country town where I can cook food and sell basic necessities.
Is it a good plan, who knows but going on like I do now is also unsustainable.
So you're not alone and sometimes you just have to go for it.
And yes I eat and drink to cope with my problems, but knowing what the problem is often no enough to fix it.