I had never heard this term until I read this article, but have often thought of a very similar feeling in the past. Maybe it's the same?
The problem is, what I'm thinking of with myself is something that I was not consciously aware of at the time, but that definitely occurred. So I can't relate to the idea of "I will probably fall in love with this person." Rather, it's there's this reaction I have, that's probably some initial attraction, or picking up on subtle cues of their attraction, or mutual attraction, that I'm not aware of at the time.
Generally speaking, I feel like I want to impress this person a lot, and feel kind of inferior or insufficient or something, like I want them to like me. It's not a manipulative feeling, like I want to manipulate them, but rather a genuine feeling of wanting to be a better person, or more attractive, in response to them. It's almost as if my brain is trying to be sexually and romantically attractive to a person I don't even know I'm attracted to.
However, in these situations, I would never really think anything about being attracted to them. If someone brought it up with me, I might even think it's absurd, and not even in a defensive way, but just in the sense that it never ever occurred to me to be in a relationship with them. I don't think to myself "oh that person is really attractive," or "they're the sort of person I'd like to be with." It's something I'm really unaware of, sometimes even for months of knowing the person. It's a very visceral, primal kind of thing.
This article seems to be describing a very similar idea, but at a later stage, where I might be becoming aware of feelings but am not entirely sure of the consequences of it or something.
I've worked as a healthcare professional provider in a major medical center in a major metro area. My parents are both physicians and my wife is also a professional provider. I've used EPIC during an initial rollout, and my wife has used it during two rollouts. I've also used other EHRs in smaller clinics since then, and have used the VA system.
My sense is that EHR mandates were colossal screwup. They should have never happened. No matter how good they seem in the ideal, mandating them should have never been the case.
The reason why is because each hospital had a very well-tuned staff with a system that was designed for that hospital, in-house, over years. Implementation of EHRs should have been done the same way, ground-up, on a site-by-site basis, in a way that allowed for more gradual, flexible adoption with complete autonomy by each site. If they wanted to buy into something like EPIC, great. If they wanted to develop something in-house, great. If they wanted to contribute to an open source project, great. That sort of system would have been much better in the long run.
As it happened, EHRs were just sort of slapped on, top down, with the providers being forced to adapt to them rather than vice versa. It was horrible, and a perfect example of government regulations fucking things up. I'm very pro-public sector, nonprofit, etc. but also think that regulations (in terms of restrictive licensing laws, FDA nonsense, things like EHR mandates, etc.) are the unrecognized disease in American healthcare systems.
EHR mandates at each hospital system I or my spouse worked at to resulted in cost overruns of billions of dollars. Those are just two systems in the US, and believe me, neither of those hospital systems--which were very successful, well-run enterprises, without EHRs--would have never implemented them when they did without the mandates.
The most egregiously stupid thing about the mandate is that EHRs would have been implemented in both these hospitals relatively soon anyway, but it would have happened on a much better timeline, in a much more sane way.
The problem is, what I'm thinking of with myself is something that I was not consciously aware of at the time, but that definitely occurred. So I can't relate to the idea of "I will probably fall in love with this person." Rather, it's there's this reaction I have, that's probably some initial attraction, or picking up on subtle cues of their attraction, or mutual attraction, that I'm not aware of at the time.
Generally speaking, I feel like I want to impress this person a lot, and feel kind of inferior or insufficient or something, like I want them to like me. It's not a manipulative feeling, like I want to manipulate them, but rather a genuine feeling of wanting to be a better person, or more attractive, in response to them. It's almost as if my brain is trying to be sexually and romantically attractive to a person I don't even know I'm attracted to.
However, in these situations, I would never really think anything about being attracted to them. If someone brought it up with me, I might even think it's absurd, and not even in a defensive way, but just in the sense that it never ever occurred to me to be in a relationship with them. I don't think to myself "oh that person is really attractive," or "they're the sort of person I'd like to be with." It's something I'm really unaware of, sometimes even for months of knowing the person. It's a very visceral, primal kind of thing.
This article seems to be describing a very similar idea, but at a later stage, where I might be becoming aware of feelings but am not entirely sure of the consequences of it or something.