@OP, I'm an EM at "frugal", ldap is hcliff if you want to chat.
I'm assuming OP is L5, which does require "people influencing", although no formal leadership and or TL role is required. You can stay at this level indefinitely.
OP, is your manager ok with your current performance? Is your EM trying to grow you for promo or into the full level reqs? You should seek clarity here and if the former set boundaries/expectations as per the parent comment.
> But now I'm struggling to find motivation to do my work
Is this recent? I'm seeing this quite a bit with the current job insecurity and turmoil at the company. As other comments have advocated: therapy and consider extended leave or a team switch. FWIW I don't think lower stakes work is going to fix your motivation, something you care about may.
the user you're replying to has delightful previous comments such as "the US media is controlled by people eligible for Israeli citizenship" which is more dog-foghorn than dog-whistle
Not a question, but I just want to thank you for "inventing" review apps back in the day, the idea of having a full version of your app running for a branch was pretty game changing for the companies I worked at.