You may be interested in the VITALITY study out of China from 2022. 400+ people given FOLFOX + Avastin (standard of care, first line for colorectal cancer) vs FOLFOX + Avastin + high dose Vit C.
Stella Maris, volume 2 of his most recent two volume novel, and The Road, have blown my mind. SM in particular focuses on a math prodigy committed to a mental asylum. I think it would speak to many people here.
I'm actually thinking of reading his entire collection, I've been so impressed by him. I just got No Country for Old Men.
I had a fantastic job while taking care of my Dad towards the end of his life. Emergencies would come up that required me to fly to him (he was in Boston in assisted living and nursing homes, I was in the Bay) and the company and my manager were so understanding about it.
I think a job where it's understood that you may have to take a day off with very little notice, or more, will go a long way to everyone's peace of mind, and I found it was possible to find that.
I’m midway through a batch at Recurse Center — (www.recurse.com) and I both personally am getting a lot of energy connecting back to the part of programming I just think are intrinsically satisfying, and I’m meeting other programmers who are also finding it helpful for recovering from burnout.
Having read some of the comments, it seems really important to me to center the information that you're queer, supporting a disabled partner. I worked in tech from 2013-2020, and from 2015-2020 my Dad's health was very fragile, and he had made no financial plans. I became his guardian, paying for homes, doing the paperwork, managing the care, and I think this is a huge piece of any situation like this.
There's a lot of curiosity in the comments about what the right environment and role is. I share those questions, but I also think it's important to just feel into the situation more before moving to action.
Queerness I also know for me, in tech, reminded me of the idea - everyone has to learn the dominant paradigm, and then there's ours. Meaning, I do think I experience the world differently through queerness, and it was a navigation to own that and lean into its gifts, rather than just feel a sense of otherness. I don't know if that's part of your experience or not, but it felt worth sharing.
I have started offering coaching - if you'd like to just connect for an hour (no charge or anything, just connection) my email is in my profile. My instinct is it would just be good to drop into what you're saying and really feel through the layers of life situation, the creeping in fear, the aloneness, the stuckness, and see where forward might be in all of it...
I’ve also sat a comparable amount of ceremony — and so of course there’s strictness about SSRIs...but I have never thought about the mechanisms like this. It just wouldn’t have occurred to me to explore in this way.
If you do find the succinct, detailed write up I’d love to see. Thank you for finding the YouTube link, I want to check it out!
Because of the presence of MAOIs, mixing ayahuasca with other drugs that affect serotonin such as MDMA or anti-depressants such as selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs), may be particularly dangerous.
Oh, yeah, I think that's true that part of the employer-employee contract is guaranteeing employees payment.
I guess I mean something a little different then. That it's really heartwarming to see an employer 'go to bat' for his team's work and his company. I was resonating with the experience of directly having freelanced with a client feeling 'out of control.' I was really caught off-guard by it and it felt (in hindsight a mistake) easy to give an inch and give another inch. There's something here -- maybe I can't put my finger on it -- in this blog post that makes me thing the author would be an incredible asset in putting down hard limits and boundaries when they need to be put down.
I just want to say, as someone who has dealt with a very challenging client -- who refused payment on 30-40 hours I put in to work, after weeks of being completely non-responsive before the client's deadline -- I can't say how much I appreciate hearing stories like this one. We didn't take the course to court -- we were two - three people and the contract was $10k as a whole, but it left me feeling very raw about contract work. I have to say for me, this is a great ad for this employer being a safe and employee-valuing place to work.